My baby boy Blue
by Ms Robinson
(Dallas T )
My baby was fine and normal this past Wednesday. Then on Thursday he started vomiting along with bloody diarrhea. I thought he may have ate something outside and planned on taking him to the vet Friday after work. Instead on my lunch my daughter called to say he wasn’t moving but still breathing. My baby was 5yrs old and I’ve had him for four years. Every day when I come home from work he would meet me at the door excited and happy. Friday (yesterday) when my daughter told me he wouldn’t move for a treat which he would normally jump for, I knew I had to hurry home. Again he normally greets me but yesterday he just couldn’t. Instead when he heard that I was home he started making a weird noise and moving his arms and legs while laying on his side. To me this meant he was saying hi mom I’m glad you’re home but I can’t move or maybe he thought he was moving but his body had already begun to shut down. I completely lost it at this point. I grabbed a blanket and rushed him to the ER vet. My baby was making noises and gasping for air the entire 6 minute ride and I felt helpless. Once I pulled up he took one last long gasp for air and I rushed him inside where the doctor met us. I broke down in the lobby and a nurse lead me to a room. The doctor came in 5 minuets later to advise he couldn’t bring my baby back. Again, I broke down. This was yesterday and I am still in one of the worse pains I’ve ever felt. I can’t stop crying. His blood is in the carpet. His toys and things are still in their place. I feel numb. I feel like a piece of me is gone. Im crying as I type because I’m in so much pain and I don’t know what to do. I was his mom. I should have done more. I should have taken him immediately instead of waiting. I haven’t slept and I just can’t believe this has happened. Maybe someone can help me I need to know how people deal with this. This is too much and I feel like its my fault.
