My Sweet Angel Lulu

by Kristy Womack
(Monticello, Georgia )

We got our sweet Lulu when she was about 12 weeks old. We were coming to someone's house to get a white one, but as soon as we saw Lulu, which was salt and pepper, we knew she was the perfect one for us. She reminded us of a flower child. Her personality was like no other. She was spoiled from the second we brought her home. Her eyes were what had us from hello. She had the sweetest eyes. She was a very special girl. I don't think a day went by that she didn't make us laugh somehow. She had little quirks that were weird but in a funny good way. She slept with us every night. Anytime I was sick, she'd be right there with me, like she knew. She was always my girl, but she was even more of a daddy's girl a lot if times. She brought a lot of happiness to us in the 6 1/2 years we had her. I personally never knew I could love an animal as much as I love my Lulu. We lost her Sunday, February 18th, 2017, not even a week ago. She was fine one day, and the next morning there was blood everywhere. We were told it was most likely hook worms and to get the meds for her and she'd be fine. She wasn't. We ended up taking her to an emergency vet hospital. They told us it was gastritis and that she wasn't critical and it wasn't life threatening. They gave her fluids and some other meds and said if we took her home and continued her meds, she'd be ok. She wasn't. 20 minutes after we left she started having seizures which has never happened. We took her right back to the hospital and within minutes she died. We were in such shock. I felt like I was having a heart attack. I still feel like I'm having a heart attack. I still cannot believe she's gone. We had a 45 minute ride home. I was holding my sweet Lulu, dead, her eyes staring right at me. I have so many feelings still all at the same time. Shock, sadness, anger, guilt, so many feelings and I don't understand why it's not getting easier. My sweet Husband bought me a new baby mini schnauzer to help me deal with it and she's definitely helping me handle it better but so far, every second that's went by since Lulu died has been so hard and some family n friends think I'm being ridiculous or dramatic I'm sure, but I hope and pray that none of them ever have to feel what I have felt this entire time. I feel as if these feelings will never ease off. It's scary. I can't hardly eat. I'm barely sleeping. I just don't know what to do or how to handle it. I feel like a crazy person. I keep praying asking God to please take at least some of the pain and sadness away or to help me understand why it happened just out of nowhere. I need some kind of relief. She was the best little girl we've ever had. Perfect in every way. I miss her so bad. I hope and pray that she knew how much she was loved and how much she meant to us. I hope and pray that she wasn't wondering why I couldn't save her or make her better. I feel like I let her down. It's already hard to handle when you have an old dog that you kind of expect could go at anytime, but when have one that's not old and is fine one day and gone the next, it's indescribable.

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